Since this was not what I had planned when starting this journey I didn’t update at the end of week one. So I am doing that now.
I have a brain and body that don’t always work together. I think about where I was when I ended my working out on a regular basis. I think I should still be so close to that with what I should be able to do. Then I would overdo it and want to completely give up by day two.
This time however I thought I was being really smart. I had decided I was going to implement the Jeff Galloway training for a 5k and go from there. Anyone I had talked to who had done the Couch to 5k training before and was not a fan, really like Jeff Galloway. I read about it and purchased an app and was all set to start.
I was planning on doing the gym Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday each week. I was planning on doing the 5k training each day and then the 30 minute circuit workout (which incorporates weights training) on Monday, Thursday and Saturdays.
I got to the gym on Monday and was so excited. Changed my shoes and knew I would need a little more warm up time than what was recommended. My fibromyalgia has certain spots that hurt more than others. Two of my worst spots are my calves/shins and my hips. Both of those are needed for running. So I planned on walking for a good 10 minutes before even starting the program.
I thought I was doing great and it turns out that I am in way worse shape than my mind thought. I started the program on day 1 and after 3 minutes in I realized there was no way I was doing this yet. I decided right then and there that I was just going to continue but really slow. I would give myself at least two weeks of just getting used to working out again and then I would decide if in week three I would start the program or if I would give myself another week of getting used to it. It was also decided at that moment it was going to be eating double on my fruits, veggies, berries and omega capsules!
When I look at myself I don’t see who I have become. Even though my life has been one of constant pain and things getting worse, I dismiss it and still feel as if I should be able to do what I want when it comes to being physical. For some reason I have not allowed myself to accept that the limitations are truly there. I know they are because so much of my life has changed and yet at the same time, I haven’t fully accepted it.
Tuesday at the gym was okay. Lots of stretching and just cardio time.
Thursday came and I got the kids ready for school and headed off to the gym. I sat in the parking lot for 35 minutes. I didn’t want to go into the gym. Having to think about getting on the treadmill and then doing the circuit just wasn’t appealing. I did finally get out of the car (with a little bit of text coaching from some amazing friends), I went into the gym and I did my long day.
Friday was just a cardio and it went well.
Saturday was a longer day and it went good. I even went out to breakfast with a friend and then went to the gym afterward.
Week one was hard. Week one was not what I thought it was going to be. Week one was a struggle but I did it. I went to the gym each day I planned. Not only did I go but I did workout each day I went. Not only did I workout each day I went but I did what I was planning in regards to cardio and circuit!
It was hard but each moment I was second guessing what I was doing, I remembered why I was doing it. I remembered what this will do for families who go to St. Jude’s Children’s Hospital for help, hope, healing and health. I remembered that not only with this help those families but it is pushing me forward on my health journey.